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Thursday, 13 January 2011

  • Banning emo?

    http://www.nme.com/news/my-chemical-romance/38392

     

    Here, I found a link from a random youtube news video I happened to stumble on after watching Onision. Apparently, due to its ties with self-mutilation, suicide and other dangerous "teen habits," Russia is planning on banning the style of Emo.

    Ok, firstly, this is incredibly ridiculous. It's not the style of dark clothes and dark hair over the face that leads teens to suicide, maybe its the difficulties they face in life or even chronic depression. Honestly, if I lived in russia and they were trying to pass legislature to keep from dressing a paarticulr way, i'd consider killing myself too. This is as insane as the sueing of My Chemical Romance for a particular teens suicide, saying their music drove her to kill herself.

    If kids are killing themselves because the music is making them do it, i personally feel theres something wrong with how the parents raised them. Do violent video games and TV shows drive kids to kill each oher? Or is it the parents making an excuse becuse its really their fault for not payin attention to their children's bullying situation and frequent trips into dads gun chest? These kids are being raised by apathetic and inexperienced parents. Hey! You say it's my generations fault for all our idiocity, dependence of technology, and apathetic behavior? Who are the people who had us right out of high school, sat us in front of the TV when you got annoyed, and threw away all our paintings we did in kindergarten? huh?

    What Russia is doing is worse than censorship. They are preventing people from living they way they feel is comfortabe becase the government feels uncomfortable with them. Now i'm not an expert on Russiian government, and maybe one of you guyys are, but in America, we would laugh at someone who proposed something as idiotic and rediculous as this Emo Ban. What has this world come to?

  • Anorexia and How I'll Never Starve (Willingly)

    http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1iksBk/www.newstatesman.com/health/2011/01/anorexia-press-caro-fashion

     

    Hey ya'll. Do you like food? I LOVE food. And I love eating. And althhough appetites and cravings fluctuate a lot in my daily diet, I will never stop. Not only because food is sooooooo good, but because I like being heathy(ish).

    Now, I'm no stranger to the anorexia and bullemia thang going around. I'm a girl growing up in the modern world with highly photoshopped ads and diets galore. I've come accross tons of girls who worry about their weight when they really don't need to. And I, being a whopping 45 pounds in fourth grade, did start to panic when puberty hit in fifth and sixth grade. over one summer i shot up to 75 pounds and i thougt I was fat because what I saw in the mirror while being 45 pounds, I saw a normal sized girl, not knowing that teachers were generally concerned about my weight.

    You see, I was never told about sudden growth spurts relating to puberty. I thought I got taller and my feet got bigger and that was about it. So when I started filling out, I was terrified. But everyone was making a huge deal about weight and these eating disorders that I chose to keep this sudden weight gain to myself. I thought that people would take my ho-hos away or judge me for finishing the other girls lunches because they were not only worried about the suspicious seasonings that looked like wood shavings on top of these square generic pizzas, but they were scared of gaining weight. And in the fifth and sixth grade. I was s overwhelmed, but I kept eating and watching me grow in secret.

    For a small period of time, I was obsessed and worried over the small bulge in my lower belly, I thought everyone had flat stomachs like the models. And I thought I was sick.

    Over time, of course, I grew to realize, hey, I'm normal. I just developed a little later than people. And honestly, I'm glad I did because if I started gaining weight with the other girls in my class, who knows how I may have ended up.

    Now, I LOVE food (as stated above). I'm a healthy 125-7 pound freshman who really needs to workout but I'm not really conserned about weight. I learned on my own that I grow. It just happens. I have little curves and cusion here and there but honestly, I think I'm one of the most beautiful girls in the world.... i mean, if i do say so myself. :P

    What makes me mad is the lack of this attitude with girls who are perfectly normal because the media tells them they're big or even their parents. I've caught my dad slipping little hints that I'm gaining weight, but I know I'm fine here in my little light weight range.

    If any parents are reading this, talk to your daughters. and your sons. Both will grow up in an image obsessed world and its hard when its just them and their minds. And things get dangerous fast. And to my peers, you all are awsomely amazing people in this world. There is only one of you. And if you want to change (healthily of course) keep eating, but stay active and dont drink so much mountain dew. i know, that sucks but you gotta stop. one a week? maybe 3? take a little at a time. Everyone can use some healthy, but the extreme is.... well kinda revolting. Bones arent that great. I mean, honestly, who wants to have sex with a pile of bones? cusion is AWESOME. :D

     

    Ok, im off to ... do stuff. :D

Monday, 10 January 2011

  • Blah

    Im no longer a fan of romantic relationships. No one seems to try anymore.

    You see, people act a particular way because of something theyve experienced in the past or things of the like. i mean, if a girl isnt being open, she probably isnt lying, she just doesnt want to get hurt. unless youve been with her for years, then you should be concerned. the problem is, everyone assumes. I was recently having a difficult time with an ex and he made me cry and someone i was almost romantically involved with came to help but i just wanted to be alone so i excused myself, be now he thinks i just dont like him. its a little extreme. i just hope it works out.

    But no one seems to try to figure out whats going on under all the facial expressions and body language. Personally, im very introverted, but it seems from all my hyper antics and loud talking that im incredibly outgoing. but its not true in the slightest. and when people stop trying to see whats under the skin, everything falls to hell, even if the other keeps trying. It has to have an equal-ish balance of energy and trying in a relationship/ and i say equlish because theres never an EXACT amount exerted by each person, some are just over-achievers :P

    I've had this hell of a relationship on and off for the last few years. But the most its been on and off is the time from september to now. Three breakups (by him) and three get-togethers (also by him.) Now it may seem like im kinda just in it to be in iit, but i would talk to him, try to keep the relatioship alive and it worked a few times, but the now added distance weas just too much for him and it always ended in disaster. Its not his fault for the end of our relationship, but he didn't work at even trying to keep the relationship going and i pestered him and clung to him when i should have just let it die.

    now im starting brand new and its terrifying. I have to start making more friends because he was someone i constantly talked to, i need to kick this depression ive been dealing with this first semester and i need to socialize. even though im not that great with the socializing. im generally very awkward and stuff....

     

    I see one of the big things about my relationship was litterally the title "Boyfriend" and "girlfriend". do you guys feel trapped by the word boyyfriend/girlfriend? because i see it as just aword, but apparently a few people cant stand it. :/ people are so weird...

Thursday, 06 January 2011

  • "Bodies" Fill Underwater Sculpture Park

    Ok when I first came upon this article, I assumed the worst. I attended an exhibit in some small NYC museum that had the, at the time, new and stunning "Bodies" exhibit. In this exhibit, there were actual dead bodies that had been donated to the exhibit and preserved to show the parts of the human body without anything rotting or smelling really, really bad.

    What I remember most in this particular exhibit was the room after room of barf-yellow preserved bodies on bikes or sitting or standing. If they were full bodies, they were doing some sort of activity, and others were cut in slices from either head to feet or horizontally to show underneith. There were some bodies with no skin to show the muscles of the human body all the way down to just the blood vessels in a body. (I have no idea how they were able to separate that from the rest of the body without damaging it but I assume it was really gross.) A few memorable (and maybe not in a good way) parts was the fetus/baby room which was incredibly upsetting to me no matter how education it was, and the figure of a woman sliced about 5 or 6 times vertically and spaced apart. She was very obese so most of what you could see was sickly-yellow fat and a tiny layer of muscle underneith. You could litterally see the skinny person inside. It was disturbing and i remember it being really funny to me. Oh and dont forget the large intestine that wraped around the room a few times. :P

    Anyway, I stumbled upon this website and thought, OMG they're putting chemical-filled dead bodies in an underwater park? But as I started looking at the pictures, it wasn't what I expected. (Thank God)

    This is a park with stone sculptures of people. It can be veiwed via snorkling or scuba diving, and I assume maybe a glass-bottomed boat. Which would be so cool to be on no matter what was in the water....

     

    From what I can see, this isn't just some attraction, its to give a place for the reefs to move and grow on, seeing as their habitats are invaded and sometimes destroyed throughout its lifetime which, I assure you, is a VERY long time.

     

    Son not only is this underwater exhibit not only entertaining and not super gross, it's very earth-friendly too. And thats what everyone's trying to do now-a-days..... right? I think so....

     

    anyways, it's in Mexico, so I don't plan on going anytime soon, but maybe someone out there will. Here's the link and go stumble and tell me about something super awesome I'd love to blog about.

     

    By the way, if this blog is super distant and awkward, its because im not used to just talking about something i just learned about. personally i like to talk about personl opinions or experiences but i dont think i can handle that without causing a scene and getting mad. and i hate getting mad.

     

    Happy reading!

     

    http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1u5lkd/news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2011/01/pictures/110105-underwater-sculpture-park-garden-cancun-mexico-caribbean-pictures-photos-science%253Fsource%253Dlink_fb20110105underwatersculpturepark

Sunday, 26 December 2010

  • Christmas

    My family has a strange habit of going to the grandparents house for christmas around five in the morning ON Christmas Day. So I get to open presents Christmas Eve and lo and behold, my hoped for computer was there under the tree. JUST LOVELY.

     

    So hello Xanga, it's been a while. How are you? Your family? How about your job? Or lack of one? I'm an unemployed college freshman, so I know the crazy thing about not spending money. I know, it ssucks in the real world.

     

    I've been growing up a lot this first semester of college. It's difficult to adjust to a huge public state school with none of your high school friends there with you to hang out and complain about shit with. So it's been very hard for me to adjust when usually I adjust quite easily. I just realized the little world I built in high school was just a little shell and now I don't have it and it's very over whelming. I've noticed that although I once avoided girly girls who loved pink and wore make-up and nice clothes and liked taylor swift and I hung out with awkward drama girls and guys, I can't really do that anymore. And I just judged without knowing because my roommate is the epitome or girly and she's awesomely awesome. And with a resent spat with a guy, I realized I don't know guys anyways. They do strive for sex A LOT and they're kinda gross. But I learned how to play Halo Reach decently. (I'm a game cube and 64 kinda person, 360 controllers confuse me.) But I'm trying to get past my past judgements and getting to know people because I feel so.... isolated when I try to look for people like I hung out with before. And it gets very lonely. Especially when I'm not big on just talking about feelings with people I don't know really really well.

     

    Besides that, I'm learning how to not complain. My past entries were really whiney... so send me a *complain slap* if I start to go back to old ways, ok?

     

    Well, Christmas was OK. We got to New York, and there was some hesitation on whether we were goiing snowboarding because a huge storm was on it's way. But we got here just in time. :D

     

    I was so excited to get a move on my story ideaa, but my flashdrive files are all messed up so I'm going to have to wait until I get home. Which will hopefully be soon, and I may have to drive home instead of a plane... But I love long car rides.

     

    Anyways, What did you guys get for Christmas? I got nice headphones, and new laptop (obviously), and some clothes and BOOTS. I love boots. And a butt load of gift cards.

     

    BTW

    Guys, honestly, do you all want casual non-serious relationships with casual sex? Or do you want a more deeper relationship? And girls, you answer too, because it seems I'm the only one who can't just have a quick casual relationship. It takes me forever to warm up to someone and forever is like...... 6 to 8 months. And that's way too long for a quick casual relationship. What I've recently heard from a guy is that most if not all guys around 18 to 21 just want the easy relationship.

     

    Can't relationships be easy and casual but still be serious and deep? Excuse my French but I just have too much dignity and love for my sanity and body to fuck on the first date.... or third date, or fifth, or anydate until I'm good and ready because if someone pushes me, I panic and I push them away and start to resent them and it gets pretty ugly. :P

     

    I just like to get to know people. most just aren't who they look like. Ever. So why let them see all of you (physically and emotionally) when you can't see them? Oh well....

     

    Random wikipedia article today is Places in Arkansas That Starts With 'R'... There are soooooo many R's   D:

    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_places_in_Arkansas:_R

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